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Sometimes I wish there were more to do out of life than the same routine I do daily. I want to chill w/ my pplz and do everything in one day, but I know this is impossible. What do I truly want to fulfill my happiness? I don't know. I don't know if you get what I'm trying to say, because I really don't myself. It's like I can think what I feel but can't express them into words. Making and creating sentencing that sound different, but have the same meaning. There's has to be more to life than this...there just has to be.

Cuddling makes up for a lot of things in life. Just someone being there while you babble on about your past, present or future situations. Someone to hold whenever you're feeling down. And someone to just listen to you w/out even saying a word back, but you know they're listening while you two just sit back and chillax.

Chatting online creates an environment where you truly don't give a fuck or you give too much of a fuck as to what others' think or say. Sometimes you're there to help and sometimes you're there to just spill about your day and listen. It's not the comfort of wondering if the other person on the end is listening and writing back, but its more of a feeling of just expressing what you feel to your friends, and sometimes complete strangers just by typing. Chatting online w/ AIM, MSN Messenger, Yahoo etc. gets addictive in its own way. Have you ever come home and went straight online in fear that someone you needed to talk to or vise-versa might leave, then you go eat or pee or whatever. You go on so others can acknowledge you're there. odd.

Live Journal is here so I can see what others do out of the day w/out actually calling up everyone. It expresses modes that a phone conversation can't because when you're typing out what you feel, you don't have the other person there interrupting you and giving their opinions. Thats what the comment section is for. When you're done writing, you sit down and wonder who's going to comment. A few hours go by or the next day comes, you go straight to your email mailbox or refresh button to see what you got. Then you reply back assuring to your friend or whomever that you got it. It feels good. Also making friends on lj is great because chances are that person already knows some people on your friends list. This chain continues creating the family of friends circle in you're own world of LJ. How many times have you just sat bored on the pc just pressing refresh in title bar uptop to see if people have replied or posted something new. Or when you check out who has a common interest as you thats living close by. Sometimes you even change your interest to see what results you get. This is what we call a Live Journal Whore.

I breakdance to keep a steady level of interest in my life. Just being around the music and luv from others enjoying their time makes me want to live more. I wish more people danced to release energy so others can feed off of it.

I play video games to escape from the world of realism to create my own. Nothing can go truly go wrong when you have the power in your hands. A controller.

I read comics just to put myself in the writers shoes and wonder just what the hell their talking about.

I go to the mall daily because I'm fascinated w/ people in general. I like to know whats going on in others minds as they shop or talk w/ a local friend. Who are these people? Why do they exist? Are they thinking the same thing I'm thinking?

Drugs, I guess that explains itself. I love shrooms, I love the herb, K is such a treat. Dank is great. It's nice and chilled when you're chillin' w/ friends and smokin' a 'J'. To me it opens up life. We only live once so why take advantage of it.

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